My addiction.

Video Games, whether it be online, console, or pc, they have all too cleverly became the center of my universe at one point in my life. As much as I would like to think that this was some sort of lame joke, it clearly, was not.

I find it unfortunate that I let Games, especially counter-strike, get the best of me during my early high school years and childhood, where it was imperative to let my identity grow like a well nurtured plant. I feel that my foundation for all discipline, or lack thereof, was demolished and consumed when I was in my gaming rampage.

How did i come to terms with such a silly conclusion?

1. My core priorities had changed from tending to those I love and care about to playing counter-strike (i.e. would become angry with mother when told to do simple chores such as taking out the garbage)
2. It was an escape to my reality of depression I faced in high school, when a person focuses on something it can and will become their reality, thus my reality was no longer facing depression rather than running away and playing counter-strike
3. The countless hours of time spent playing was a clear indication that i was addicted but was in denial and hadn't realized so (i.e. 7am-2:30pm would be school time, 2:40pm-4am was time spent play counter-strike
4. When others would get bored of playing or fatigue, I would never want to stop, and would become irritated when told to stop.
   

As petty of an issue this might seem to certain people, I deeply believe this was a determining factor in which had set a path of destruction in my life. I'm also glad I have come to reach this conclusion because now I know to make this a priority in my life to never play games again. Although this will not be an easy task for me because there is not a moment in time at home when i am not thinking about playing again, and i am fearful for that but also feel that this task is not impossible.

The Power of the Brain and self-acceptance.

It is rumored that humans only use 10% of their brains consciously...A constant question i have in mind is how can I access the other 90% that isn't being used? Though i don't have any concrete answers, I will attempt to resolve this issue with small solutions and share them as i gain this knowledge.

Something I came to terms with today:
A solution to anger issues that I've deal with on a daily basis...
(keep in mind that these 'solutions' require a willingness to change, if you are not open and willing to change then you can sure as hell forget about it)

• What you perceive to be real, may or may not exist, regardless, you're perceptions become reality whether you aware or not

For example: making situations worse or extreme then they really are, aka OVER-dramatic.
"I can't believe he/she was late, this ruins my entire day"

Because you perceive that your entire day is ruined just because someone was late, essentially your perceptions become reality, thus your day is actually ruined, over what?...absolutely nothing a.k.a being late

Solution:
Don't let your thoughts run wild and run a muck on your brain with all of those "What if's and if this happens then this can happen" Make a conscious effort to minimize the situation at hand with a simple thought such as

"When I look at the bigger picture, this actually means nothing and it'll be okay"

now your probably like "It's not that easy and if it was that easy then why doesn't it work for me?"

Here's where your willingness to change comes in to play.

Basically what you end up doing when you minimize the situation is accepting the reality of your situation at hand and this is the big term for today, SELF-ACCEPTANCE.

SELF-ACCEPTANCE can and will prevent stress and not only promotes humility but creates it.